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[Feb. 12th, 2005|12:26 pm] |
im sick of being young.
I dont like it here
Some day im going to get up and leave
Leaving all horrible memories behind
Taking only the few good
Ill be back to visit
when im gone |
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| Yea feeling great real great |
[Feb. 12th, 2005|12:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
The last time she dropped me off
Was the last time I really heard her talk
If I didn’t mean anything
Then why kiss me on the lips
Why two times
why at all
Why did you hold my hand
Or kiss me so many times
Why tell me that you like me
when you don’t
when next week you will be sleeping next to him
him instead of me
no good bye
no explanation
Just me sitting here
Confused
hurt
lost |
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| nothing to write about but ill write anyways |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|03:58 pm] |
Earlier i was in the worst mood ever. I dont know what it was from. It started when i woke up and disapeared around the time school got out. Life just feels as if its all fading away, more and more every day disapearing. Oh well... Im not in a bad mood now im in a good mood, but it still bothers me why i was so down in the dumps.
Valentines day is coming up and i dont know what i am going to do for it. I have no money, no ideas,but i do know who i would love to spend valentines day with. Nicci. Shes awsome. yay .
Its mardi gra night tonight hells yeah.
Im a regular writer for Boy Girl zine, 1st issue will be out sometime in march. You'll all have to check it out. some more good news, i passed the semester lol.
now for bad bad bad news. Eponines Revenge is no longer a band. Sry to but they all went there different ways. It was awsome while it lasted guys. Thank you for letting me be ur guesses merch bitch and being the touring basses. The one time i did play ill never forget. how could i forget.
Other good news, i think i might be getting a job at Pi's that would be killer chinese i mean kool. hahahah not funny i know. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 29th, 2005|12:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | three six mafia | ] |
Last night dave came over and we skated a bit. We saw justin, dave from pizza hut, alex lundal and then we picked up leane toward the end of the night. We hung out yadda yadda. Me and dave are going to simplicity sk8park tomorrow. I cant wait its going to be the shit. Hopefully today me and him will be able to do some skaten and get some footage. Yesterday my mother came and got me and we went to the salvation army and i got some new pants and a new sweater its so awsome(grandpa style).
I cant say life is bad right now, because its not. Im not getting introuble no drama, me and my family are getting along. No conflict what so ever.
Right now im trying to get a job. I need one because i want to be living in apartment by the end of the summer if not a little later. I dont want to move out because i dont like it here. Its just i think im ready to take on life. Sounds dumb but i did it before i can do it now. Im not going to quit school or get in any trouble im just going to be on my own it will make life tons easier.
It think life is final;ly equaling it self out for me and now i can move on in life and not be so built up inside.
Im happy what more can i ask for. |
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| chillen |
[Jan. 24th, 2005|01:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | corpse smoke (flamingo Piss) | ] |
Well i got outta school today early, our well/pump under our school is dry so we couldnt be in school with no running water (toilets) so we went to the library till 12 and now im home. I have therapy at 3 should be done around 4 then i have a little bit to do today then hopefully hanging out with kirstin.
Last night i went over to Nikki and Dan's new apartment. Its awsome, im so excited because its literally 2 second down the road so i can go visit them anytime. We just sat around and talked good times good times.
Me and dave are going into viva variety or something like that. Im going to rap about school and daves going to play the acostic. lol what a great combo. If we make it you all shall here some real 989 at the show because the ending will be "droppin seeds" by 989. It will be a deliciouse treat for all.
Yea so... today here i come |
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| ONE LOVE ONE HEART LETS GET TOGETHER AND FEEL ALL RIGHT |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|12:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bob Marley | ] |
Well i havnt been up to to much. Exam week was easy. Monday I had "exams" and then after i had therapy. Then hung out with some freinds. Tuesday same thing and wed same thing. I finally got to hang out with justin 2days ago he came over and spent the night. It was fun, we eneded up riding bikes to walgreens in 2 in the morning or so. It was -7 outside, fucking freezing. Then the nest day we went over to justins and then went and hung out with Jonny T. Good guy.
Latley i have been getting into bob marley, ben harper, against all authority, leftover crack.
There hasnt been anything going on in my life latley. I finally got outta trouble and life seems to be better. Im not sure about my therapist anymore. I know its helped because im not down anymore. Well as much. I think if i quit going then i will be back to square one again which i dont want to be. I think its helped because i get to vent out everything but then i dont know, i dont know whatever.....
So i used to listen to phish a little bit back in the 7th and 8th grade then i never really listened to them until now. Justin is all about them and they do fucking rock. I normally dont play that many video games but i have been playing this rpg game called drug lord2 pretty sweet game i might add.
Iv been dying to skate so bad. I just want to skate skate skate but i cant.
So i need a job super deduper bad. Im looking. Its hard this time of year, when season changes hopefully there will be some big job openings somewhere.
and on the note que the music......... ( Is this love (bob marley) )
I wanna love you and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night
We'll be together with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
I wanna know - wanna know - wanna know now!
I got to know - got to know - got to know now!
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
I wanna love you - I wanna love and treat - love and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, yeah! - with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter, yeah, oh now! - of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Wo-o-o-oah! Oh yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
Yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
See: I wanna love ya, I wanna love and treat ya -
love and treat ya right.
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads!
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! Jah provide the bread.
We'll share the shelter of my single bed - |
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| long time since i met you with outta doute step step step 2 |
[Jan. 18th, 2005|05:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | leftover crack | ] |
It has been quit some time since i have wrote in here. Well this is the load down of what has happened over a short period of time: I am now a bongo player in VMS. I will be help running the wesley during shows when eric is gone on his 3 month trip, I like someone (smile), Iv been alot happier now knowing its ok to stand for your self, I cant stop listening to policia by leftover crack. Iv been getting into alot of old music i havnt listen to since me and dave and justin stopped having driving in the car listnening to music bond time. Im learning to apreciate thing in life alot more. And fuck school!I also foun dout that justin miller is my stalker .....| arelastgoodbye's LJ stalker is rancidsmansid! | | rancidsmansid is stalking you because they have nothing better to do with their time. They are also stalking you in real life. Look out! |
LJ Stalker FinderFrom Go-Quiz.comIsnt that funny! I miss justin. He is alwasy working and i cant ever hang out with him because he is at work. Sucks... Also on other news update promo is out just in case i never mentioned that! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2005|09:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | corpse smoke | ] |
So not alot has been happening. Last friday i went and say blonde at the casino that was kool. Today is wed i cant belive it. I dont know why i cant i just cant. I woke up this morning on the couch and was checking the weather and found out that we didnt have school because it was ice. Fuck yeah thats great. Or skate promo is done. Its full of old footage but its still good. So i have no idea what i am doing. Today i am supposed to go and play music with some buds of mine. It will be kool. I havnt seen justin in a long time and it kinda sucks. I miss the guy. Me and dave have been chillen. I want to get ahold of him soon. Well he just signed online sweet. SO..... Im joinging a band with derek spitzer. Acustic and bongo's which of course me on bongo's that will be kool. Well im bored maybe go smoke a cig and go to daves Peace.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 5th, 2005|09:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
So i ended up doing really nothing tonight. Nights like this im very depressed. I hate being down. It seems every night i feel like shit a nothing worthless. I hate how alot of people have to bring up the past. Yes i know i was a major fuck up in the past why dont you just drop it. I have to live with the memories and believe me they dont go away. But when you repeat yourself and pick everything out of the past that i did wrong it hurts. I know i was a fuck up im sorry i cant change anything ya know. What else can i do. WHy talk about it when we already have and its donme and over with the past is the past you can let go i cant so help me out and dont talk about it.
I'v been thinking alot latley how much i dont want to be my dad. If i turn out like my dad is i just might have to kill myself in the worst way possible. Im scared of what the future holds for me. I want it to hold something, i wont let it not im just scared if i hold a future that blows.
im going to bed good night to all.......... |
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| weeds and seeds |
[Jan. 5th, 2005|06:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  of course im bored i am every | ] |
| [ | music |
| | kmk (tangerine sky) | ] |
Today hasnt been to bad. Iv been workin on a song. I went to school then after i went and hung out with d-boy. Nate came over and we wnet and chilled in the hot tube and talked about old times. Then nate left for jazz bad and dave left somewhere with his dad. I got home and theres no one home. Of well. What to do?
Hopfully before to long i will have some songs finalized and ready for shows. The album is goingt o be called weeds and seeds. Thats about it my life right now is boring...... |
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